{"id":511,"date":"2013-09-22T14:22:42","date_gmt":"2013-09-22T08:52:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/therunningsoul.com\/?p=511"},"modified":"2014-11-14T15:57:48","modified_gmt":"2014-11-14T10:27:48","slug":"an-epiphany-of-choice","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/therunningsoul.com\/2013\/09\/an-epiphany-of-choice\/","title":{"rendered":"An Epiphany of Choice"},"content":{"rendered":"
With much pomp and grandeur the monsoon bid us adieu. Since then, the temperature and humidity \u00a0have been rising steadily, along with the kilomteres.<\/p>\n
I am working now on Negative Splits, increasing my speed as I believe stamina for mileage will come. After 2 full marathons below my belt, I want to test \u00a0speed along with endurance. Hence, I am running relatively shorter distances, at faster paces.<\/p>\n
I run the first half at a regular long run pace, and step it up in the last 5-6 km. it takes a lot of determination to pick up my tired legs and to push the drained out brain. But, once I start its even harder to keep at it for the next few kilometers. It consumes my entire being to keep going.<\/p>\n
But I stick at it,with only one single thought, that I should keep going, and this too, shall end.<\/p>\n
Today, I ran 18k, with 4 km \u2013 from km 13- km 17 at a faster pace. \u00a0I got a stitch at this speed, I wanted to give up. I actually stopped for two seconds, but started running immediately after.<\/p>\n
I ran with pain.<\/p>\n
I ran because I wanted to.<\/p>\n
I ran because I could.<\/p>\n
I focused all my energy towards the one goal I had today. And, I did it.<\/p>\n
4 km \u2013 from km 13- km 17 @ 5.33 min\/km.<\/p>\n
I felt I had died.<\/p>\n
But, died and gone to heaven! \u00a0\ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
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On reaching NCPA, I heard some of the runners \u00a0discussing humidity\u2026.But I had not even noticed!<\/p>\n
Me- me whose favourite peeve is the weather- the sun, the temperature!<\/p>\n
I just ran.<\/p>\n
It was only me and the road.<\/p>\n
Today, I found a quote on Kristen Armstrong\u2019s blog:<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat you focus on, Expands.\u201d<\/p>\n
Wow- an epiphany.<\/p>\n
I now understand what has been going on in my brain. All this time I was focusing on the difficulties- weather\u2026distance\u2026..et al, which only made the run harder. The mere thought of it and what it might mean becomes consuming and much bigger than the actual challenge.<\/p>\n
It was the same for the hill run last week. I just put one foot in front of the other continuously, \u00a0and kept going.as a result- I ran all the hills- non stop- something which I have always aspired to do!<\/p>\n
The walls are crumbling\u2026\u2026.the mind is getting clearer\u2026\u2026<\/p>\n