This has been a strange year. I ran a lot of races and surprised myself. I ran Bangalore and Hyderabad without any expectations. And did reasonably well.
But the upcoming race -in 5 days – ADHM 2015…
In ADHM 2014 I got my coveted sub 2, effortlessly. I ran easy. Found my rhythm and flew. But I worry about this year. My training has neither been smooth nor consistent. Bad speed workouts. But good long runs. So I really don’t know what to expect. Yes. I have worked hard. But my mind, as usual, has worked harder.
Creating all these doubts.
Making up stories.
Magnifying all my fears.
Last Wednesday after a bad speed workout:
Me: I am not a fast runner.
Rohan: Stop it. You cannot run because you are thinking like that. You are stuck in 2010. Wake up. Let go! It is 2015!! And you are fast. (Yes, I know it’s all relative!)
Me: speechless (for a change) !
I have 5 days.
5 days to empty my head.
5 days to build my confidence.
5 days to find my strength.
I am going to Delhi with a purpose.
To run hard.
To run strong.
To run faster than I have ever run before.
Yes, I know – PBs in Delhi are only valid in Delhi 🙂